Wasted words

I hold onto those hands
And try to turn it back,
I don't wish for loss time
Just lost words lost in time.

Take away memories
Everything take it all
Warmth,cold,smiles,loneliness,
I only want one thing left.

But those words it mattered
Those wasted words I spoke
Can spoken words come back?
Again mine , be my words

The time will come to part
Say it to you my love
I know it will be you
Who will keep my words

So I am asking now
Can I have those sweet words?
He did not deserve them
But you do,oh,you do.

You will keep it,won't you?
Keep it safe and with warmth?
Words and me forever
Keep it in your loving heart.

I met a person disguised as my soulmate and also another person disguised as an angel. God does give with both hands.

Angel in disguise

U cured me next u left
I've been cruel to u
But u only wanted me
Me and the whole me

Including my cuts n bruise
But u deserve clear blue
Like the spakling sky
The midnights we met

I am broken now
U dun need this broken girl
Someone deserves ur laughs
That had healed me, thanks

U laugh n smile
It's without any cost
Am uncomfortable
I am not used to it

So I push u away
I hide my scars from u
I want to be unmarked
A blank paper for only u

Only u to write
I wish we met before
Before the disaster changed me
But would u still loved me

I wait for u to decide
To turn back time
Or embrace my scars
It's up to you

But whatever u decide
I want to tell u this
The scars inside have healed
Only the marks are left

So thank u my Angel
Thank u for coming
U picked me up
Showed I had a chance

A chance to love again
N it was you
You my dear
That uncovered the tears
Beneath my smiles
N still loved me all the same

I can't be with u
I couldn't do this to u
Exit before it turns red
Choose the safe play.

U will be remembered
I swear to u
God gave me an love enemy
But he also gave me u
An angel in disguise.